Calm

My handling of difficult topics causes anxiety out of control. Which causes _______. It was not _______. It was my stress. We had that big fight and afterwards I got _______.
Solution: when difficult topics come up can we deal with them on paper or email. When your anxieties build up write them down. I struggle to talk about them in a calm way. My anxiety is my undoing. If I don't get a solution we need to stop _______ now ... because I'm not going to make it. The _______ used to my stress, now the _______ is my release and home is my stress. When I do get heated, forgive me, but I'm going to stop and walk away. I will not tell anymore. And I will not raise my body temper like this. It paralyzes me to stupor and I take 4 steps back ... I feel how the anger courses like poison through my veins that takes weeks to clear out cause I hold it inside me for a long time. I relent. I give up. I can not control it. And for now need to avoid it. The best way I know is on paper and to step away from you when your anxieties come up. I'm sorry I can't be a better person or partner to you when it comes to this. But I don't want to tell at you either anymore. So understand when I ask you to leave me alone. Don't keep pushing. Just write it down instead.

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